Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Emma and the water

My little fishy FINALLY got use to her float this weekend in the pool and absolutely LOVED it.....Here are a couple of pictures from our weekend fun in the pool....

On overload......

well, it finally came down to it and I had to reschedule my surgery. I am suppose to be stress free to decrease healing time and with everything going on, I could not see that happening, so we reschedule. Just so happens, my surgeon is out of the country for about 2-3 weeks out of August, so it's moved to September 21st. I had my Xk2 babies (the 3,4 and 5 year olds I teach on Sunday at church) singing in big church that Sunday morning and our JBQ team (that I help coach) would be having our first fundraiser that Sunday night after church, Blake goes to Birmingham Monday to meet with the surgeon who did his surgery for followup and Upper GI, Blake has another appt on Wednesday, 3rd grade orientation Wednesday night, Blake eye appt Thursday morning and getting school supplies done, then his first week of 3rd grade......I would have to miss ALL of this because I would be right in the middle of recoup time and I can't see that happening. I would be stressed to the max, so we thought about it and felt best that I reschedule. Now, in the middle of planning our JBQ fundraiser...fun, busy times....

Monday, July 19, 2010

Blakester and Em

Can't believe we are gearing up to send Blake off to 3rd grade. WOW! Time flies. Looking forward to finding out this week who his new teacher will be. Summer break is now down to 21 days. My boy is getting so big, but he keeps getting sweeter and sweeter. Last night he told me he would love me forever and ever and he loves me all the way down deep in his heart!! HOW SWEET!!!!!!!!!! He tells me that he is my #1 love and dad is my #2 love. He knows who comes first.... :) He has been working on his swimming and going under water and has trusted his dad to help him with that and this weekend he broke a fear and even did a flip under water. YAY!! Go Blake!

Emma is now trying to run instead of walk..she has figured out she can get around now and she does not like to stay still for long at all. Still loves to eat what doesn't eat her first. There isn't one food that I can think of she has turned away at all. She is learning new words daily it seems. Now it's bubba, mama, dada, daddy, Emma, up, down, uh oh, out....before long, she will never stop talking....we are gonna have our hands full with her :) Such a joy!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I LOVE BEING A MOMMY!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

our fun day at the lake

Dad's buddy                                                                    Daddy's girl

Friday, July 16, 2010

A quote with such a profound meaning.......

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~by Marianne Williamson

A dream finally turning into reality

Wow and Amazing....The only two words I can think of to describe what my new life is becoming. Blake, Emma and I have been blessed by God with an amazing man. Thank God for the two bad relationships, heart aches and pain I had to go through to get to this point. This man is who He had destined for me all along and if it took going through all of that, then so be it...very well worth it. Our beginning started like this........ a lady from my church, who has known me 10 years now  and whom I call mama, said to me one day, "you know who would be a good match for you?", I said "who?", and she says "Mike." Nothing else was said and this was on a Wednesday. Sunday morning, I came to my Xk2 class where I co-lead and my best friend says to me that she had a dream the night before that he and I were together. This started my interest. Two people speaking the same thing and neither of them knew the other had said anything. Two weeks later, we began talking by emails about different things and about Blake, who absolutely adores him and trusts him more than any man on the earth and on a Saturday, he asks me to come over and watch movies. So, we watched a movie and had pizza and had some conversation, we were both kind of nervous. From that day on we have not gone without speaking throughout the day and barely any days have we not seen each other. This has been a life changing journey that has only just begun and I can not wait to see where this road will lead us...TOGETHER! :) We have had several stumbling blocks come our way and waiting on things, but we overcame them as a team and we trust God and KNOW that He has destined for the two of us to be together and this man is going to be an awesome, amazing, astounding father for Blake and Emma one day and a great husband to me. <3 <3 <3 We have had a couple trips to the lake, some state park trips, we just enjoy spending time with each other doing anything...we call it "family time." He has already been here for me and has been my rock through some rough patches...my uncle having a heart attack, my dad waiting on results from cancer treatments, the kids being sick, babysitter calling out...and there he was, right there waiting to help....It's been a few months now and I am so in love. Emma has picked up calling him dadda and LOVES him. She doesn't want mommy to put her to sleep anymore, she gets right out of my arms and goes into his. Sooooooooooooo sweet! It melts my heart! She gives him the biggest open mouthed smile every time she sees him and waves at him when we say goodbye. Blake has just recently, over the past weekend, called him dad twice. This is a miracle in itself. Blake finally feeling close enough to a man to feel that way. Walls are finally falling for Blake and I both. Monday night, I had to take Emma to the acute care center after JBQ practice and Blake went home with him and when I got there to pick him up, Blake says to me, "Mommy, I told Commander Mike he was going to be my #1 daddy because he's sweet to me and does things with me and then Greg can be #2 dad that I don't see.......I had to choke back those tears! What the road ahead lies....only God knows.....